No One Gets to Fall Apart: A Memoir

A New York Times Notable Book

A Best Book of the Year -- NPR, Esquire, Elle

Finalist for the Writers' League of Texas Book Award

Longlisted for Reading the West

"Brilliant . . . stunning . . . deserves a place alongside modern classics like Jeannette Walls's The Glass Castle and Tara Westover's Educated." -- Susannah Cahalan, New York Times bestselling author of Brain on Fire

"A triumph." -- Lorrie Moore, author of I Am Homeless If This Is Not My Home

On a highway in Houston, Texas, Sarah LaBrie's mother was found screaming at passing cars, terrified she would be murdered by invisible assailants. The diagnosis of schizophrenia that followed compelled Sarah to rethink her childhood, marked at turns by violence and all-consuming closeness in their complex mother-daughter relationship.

Digging into the events that led to her mother's break, Sarah traces her family history of generational trauma and mental illness, from the dysphoria that plagued her great-grandmother, a granddaughter of slaves, to her own experience with depression as a scholarship student at Brown. At the same time, she navigates a decades-long fixation on a novel she can't finish but can't abandon, her complicated feelings about her white partner, and a fraught friendship colored by betrayal.

Spanning the globe from Houston's Third Ward to Paris to Tallinn and New York to Los Angeles, No One Gets to Fall Apart is an unflinching chronicle of one Black woman's attempt to forge a new future through a better understanding of the past.

Intellectually fierce and emotionally raw, this is a story of inheritance, identity, and the memories we must confront to survive.

• A Complicated Mother-Daughter Bond: Navigating a relationship defined by both "all-consuming closeness" and violence in the shadow of a devastating schizophrenia diagnosis.
• Searching for an Origin: Tracing a family history of mental illness from a great-grandmother, the granddaughter of slaves, through the author's own depression as a scholarship student at Brown.
• A Black Woman's Coming of Age: An unflinching journey from Houston's Third Ward to the Ivy League and beyond, grappling with race, class, and the struggle to write her own future.
• For Readers of Educated and The Glass Castle: A stunning literary memoir that blends intellectual rigor with raw, personal narrative to explore the ties that bind and the moments that break us.