52 Surgeries: What They Don't Tell You Before You Go Under

52 Surgeries: What They Don't Tell You Before You Go Under is a lived account of preparing for repeated medical procedures when the body has become a long-term site of intervention rather than a temporary problem to be fixed.

Written from personal experience, this book reflects on the physical, emotional, and psychological realities of undergoing surgery again and again - including fear, fatigue, dissociation, resilience, and the quiet work of consent. It does not offer medical advice, recovery timelines, or assurances of outcome. Instead, it names what it can feel like to live inside a body that must repeatedly submit to uncertainty.

This work attends to preparation rather than recovery, recognizing that much of the strain occurs before the procedure itself. It offers language for experiences that are often minimized in clinical settings, such as anticipatory grief, bodily mistrust, and the effort required simply to show up.

This book is for those navigating ongoing medical intervention - and for those seeking to understand the interior reality of surgical endurance without romanticizing strength or minimizing cost.