I Was Made in God's Image and Man Is He Pissed: When Surrendering Means Victory

At 9 years old I knew I was different, sought constant attention, and even in a room filled with people often felt alone. That would all change when alcohol and drugs entered my life at 15. Married and the father of a son at 18 years old, I never knew what was going to happen when I took that first drink. Reality was a difficult task and I had no use for it so I constantly lived in a fantasy world blaming everything, and everyone for my circumstances and shortcomings. There was no such thing as personal accountability or poor life choices, I saw myself as a victim constantly being dealt a bad hand. Through failed friendships, relationships, marriages, and even the thought of taking my own life, I couldn't stop drinking. On my knees in desperation crying, "Save me or take me, I cannot bear this pain any longer, and my loved ones do not deserve this, please help me, God." A miracle transpired and I have been blessed with over 32 years of continuous sobriety. This life is beyond my wildest dreams and it is my responsibility to pass the good news along to others that suffer from alcoholism and/or drug addiction. There is a life without alcohol and drugs for anyone who wants it. This new life will bring an indescribable freedom filled with joy, love, peace, and happiness.