Becoming her: A Journey Back to My Soul

Becoming Her: A Journey Back to My Soul is a deeply personal and spiritual memoir that captures one woman's raw return to Allah after heartbreak, disconnection, and silent battles no one saw. Nani Suriani opens the pages of her soul with unfiltered honesty-sharing moments of quiet collapse, unspoken love, emotional exhaustion, and the spiritual rediscovery that followed.

This is not a story about perfection. It's a story about returning.

About walking away from what the world said you needed-validation, applause, love that cost your peace-and choosing instead the unseen path that leads back to your soul. A path where prayer is no longer a ritual, but a refuge. Where solitude isn't loneliness, but clarity. And where obedience becomes the bridge between who you were, and who you're becoming.

Across 16 reflective chapters, Nani writes about grief, growth, tawakkul (trust in Allah), identity, love, and spiritual discipline. She weaves her journey with Qur'an verses, personal du'as, and vulnerable moments of reflection that resonate with women who have questioned their worth, their direction, or their strength.

From the ache of letting go of a love that wasn't aligned with faith, to the joy of rediscovering purpose in stillness, Becoming Her is both a healing companion and a spiritual awakening. It is for the woman who prays in silence. For the one who carries heartbreak quietly. For the one who is still learning to trust Allah in every season.

This memoir reminds us that the journey isn't linear. Some chapters are loud and painful. Others are quiet and sacred. But all of them matter. And none of them are wasted when they lead us back to Allah.

Whether you are new to Islam, rediscovering your deen, or simply navigating the in-between spaces of life, this book is a gentle reminder that it is never too late to return.

For every woman still becoming-this is your invitation to return home.

Because the door to Allah was never closed. And Becoming Her is proof that even the most broken heart can become a vessel of light, obedience, and peace.